Monday, October 22, 2012
As fall begins to settle over the dry land, I feel the parched distance in my soul. I am too long away from the temple of the trees and the pews of the grass. My feel the call of the wild deep within me, like a primal urge. Yet I never seem to be able to make the time in my craze to succeed in school. Constantly studying, slouched over a desk, lost in the deep learning of the medical texts. Pages upon pages of all that can go wrong in these amazing bodies we call home, with periodic pictures of pain and suffering. I ache to be free again. Free of responsibility, free of deadlines, free of the everyday testing of how much information I have been able to slam into my long term memory in a mere twenty four hours. I long to run my hands across the rough bark of the cottonwoods and chat with their old spirits in the language of energy traded. I wish to sit and listen to the babbling of Po-Sun-Co-La as the sun twinkles off her sparkly ever flowing cloak....
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
This blog has been silent for a long time. I started this blog as a place to publicly share my experiences with Druidry and as a journal for my inner journey on this path. As readers will know, I am currently in a nursing school, and this is taking not only all my time, but everything I can through at it mentally, physically, and spiritually. It is my spirituality and faith in the holy kindred that get me through day to day. I have done some difficult things in my time, but Nursing school tops them all. I have gone from a straight “A” student with time left over to run a pagan spiritual meetup weekly, my local grove and leading the high day rites, to studying 6 hours a day for a test only to get a “B”. I have had to cancel the last high day right and have no plans to lead another until the winter solstice when I am on break from classes. What I am doing is my daily meditation and daily offerings to the kindred. I am also struggling with one of my instructors, it would seem she hasn’t taken much a like to me and on the last major paper appeared to actively be trying to find reasons to fail me on it (which she did.). I also am beginning to suspect that some of the “vibe” I am picking up from her is religious in nature. I suspect she has at some level an issue with my being pagan. Thus I responded with a small bit of magic of my own in the hopes she will see me in a better light. My studies on my clergy training have been put on hold for the time being, but I am only one essay away from finishing my preliminary work. I plan to finish this up over the winter break. I haven’t made the time to do any major workings or spirit-walks of late. This is something I hope to change over the coming break as well. I miss my weekly meetings, and I miss leading the high day rites. I never realized till now how much I enjoyed it all, until I couldn’t make the time.