some days are better then others

Well, haven't been able to post as much as I would like. School, work, and chores keep me pretty busy. I am still working on the anger I feel toward my ex. Some days are better then others in that regards. The Ex has gone on a trip out of the country with the kids to see family, so I haven't been able to speak to her at all, and thus no resolution. I am pretty much stuck in the same place I was a couple weeks ago. The other day the stress of it all made me down right grouchy on the inside, but it seems I did a good job of not letting it play out in my relationships. I did the sacred grove exercise and the light body. Instead of doing it the usual way though, I tried to take the anger and "burn" it up as a "fuel" to the light in the light body exercises. I think this helped a little, and I should continue with the practice. I have noticed that I am dreaming a lot about my Ex, and this situation. Each time I am arguing with her over it. I don't normally remember my dreams, but when I do I pay attention. I think that these however are just my subconscious mind working out its own form of cognative disonence. Since I can't find resolution in the waking world, my mind is trying to create it in the dream world. Yesterday I felt the heavy weight of the issues on me. Today, I feel much lighter and happier. Not care free, but much better. I guess for now at least, I must wait until the ex returns from her trip and take it from there. Until then I think I'll go enjoy my garden and grove.
Gwynt-Siarad