Day four of my daily devotionals, and the meditation was
back to being a still image of the high one seated in her throne. I have noticed that since I started these
devotionals I am feeling much more compassionate than usual. It’s a nice feeling. Some examples of what I am referring too
would be the woman at the gas station, wearing angry bird pajama bottoms, old
tennis shoes, a dirty white old winter jacket and a burger king crown on her
head. She was going from customer
begging for change. I felt a wave of
compassion for her. Another example
would be the other day when my b’loved was being very critical of how another
woman dressed at a party we had been to.
Though I could see the point my b’loved was making I couldn’t help but
feel compassion for the woman, who ‘s clothing choice, though uncouth, wasn’t
so bad as to deserve such derision. (to
cleaify the woman was not known to us nor around when the conversation took
place) In the past these are situations
that probably wouldn’t have elicited much of an emotional response from
me. This week however I found myself
wishing there was something I could do to benefit them. I can only attribute the change to the
devotional work I am doing. Compassion is
a great thing to have. However like all
emotions it needs to be in moderation. I
am curious to see if this new found compassion is some sort of “rebalancing”
the goddess is giving to me, that I am regaining the compassion I lost, or is
it a new thing entirely. Right now I
think it’s a rebalancing, or re finding an aspect of the person I was before my
now ex wife slowly stole it away.
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